I think every day about my role on this Earth. I wonder how I am living up to the expectations my soul had in mind. Today I am especially sensitive to family. I have done years of work in therapy about my past. I fear that I am a little crazy, but mostly I am crazy about life and the pursuit of truth in feeling and emotion. I had an argument with a family member yesterday about their role in my past and I became aware of how important it is to build trust. We didn't have trust and so we had an un-productive argument about who was responsible for what. Thinking back I can't help but wonder if honesty about ones emotions, without trust, is bound to be unresolved. Resolution for me will come when the table is clear of hidden pain and secrets. An emotion hidden is a playing field for war and suffering. With oneself and with others.
I want to be free of pain, free of secrets and free of the darkness that binds the fear that plagues the unwary.
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