TO THE MOUNTAINS . . .

A few days ago I was at work and I came across a job posting in my company for a position. I see these often but when I saw this posting my whole body responded with excitement. The opening position is for the same job I do now only it is in Boulder Colorado. What?? In the mountains? I can't go. No way. . . But maybe. . .

I don't know if it will work out, or if I will get the position, but choosing to try it is a leap of faith into trusting my instincts. My body and heart opened and responded so clearly that to fail to attempt to achieve this position and move would be counter to all I believe in. I must trust. It is exciting isn't it! Listening to the voice from the spaces between worlds. 

Who I want to be

I think every day about my role on this Earth. I wonder how I am living up to the expectations my soul had in mind. Today I am especially sensitive to family. I have done years of work in therapy about my past. I fear that I am a little crazy, but mostly I am crazy about life and the pursuit of truth in feeling and emotion. I had an argument with a family member yesterday about their role in my past and I became aware of how important it is to build trust. We didn't have trust and so we had an un-productive argument about who was responsible for what. Thinking back I can't help but wonder if honesty about ones emotions, without trust, is bound to be unresolved. Resolution for me will come when the table is clear of hidden pain and secrets. An emotion hidden is a playing field for war and suffering. With oneself and with others.
I want to be free of pain, free of secrets and free of the darkness that binds the fear that plagues the unwary.